Cirrus@Austlit

'As a cop, I used to sit on one side of the interview room table facing murderers, child abductors and rapists. Now I'm facing in the other direction: disgraced, forced out of the police and found to be a criminal. I want to show you what the world looks like from here.

'Talking to crooks, cops, forensic psychologists and scientists, as well as the victims, I've gone back to some of Australia's worst acts of evil, including unsolved murders that never made the front pages as well as infamous killings carried out by Ivan Milat and the Granny Killer, the murder of Anita Cobby, the Hoddle Street massacre, Port Arthur, the Parramatta girls' home and the disappearance of preschooler William Tyrrell. What I've found has made me question everything, including where evil comes from, what drives us to carry out criminal acts and how we can prevent them.The experience has changed me - and the answers are surprising.

'I used to be on the side of the angels. Now I'm learning badness is done by both sides.

'Gary Jubelin was one of Australia's most celebrated homicide detectives, leading investigations into the disappearance of William Tyrrell, the serial killing of three Aboriginal children in Bowraville and the brutal gangland murder of Terry Falconer. In 2020, he was found guilty of illicitly recording conversations with a witness. Since leaving the NSW Police Force, he has co-authored an award-winning book and built a career in the media, working in newspapers, television and podcasts. Gary still works hard to help the victims of crime.' (Publication summary)

'Serial killings, child abductions, organised crime hits and domestic murders. This is the memoir of a homicide detective.

'Here I am: tall and broad, shaved head, had my nose broken three times fighting. Black suit, white shirt, the big city homicide detective. I've led investigations into serial killings, child abductions, organised crime hits and domestic murders. But beneath the suit, I've got an Om symbol in the shape of a Buddha tattooed on my right bicep. It balances the tattoo on my left ribs: Better to die on your feet than live on your knees. That's how I choose to live my life.

'As a cop, I got paid to catch killers and I learned what doing it can cost you. It cost me marriages and friendships. It cost me my reputation. They tell you not to let a case get personal, but I think it has to. Each one has taken a piece out of me and added a piece, until there's only pieces.' (Publication summary)