Cirrus@Austlit

The first of four books in Donna's autie-biographical series, Nobody Nowhere is disturbing, eloquent and ticklishly funny.  It is an account of a soul of someone who lived the word 'autism' and survived abuse, trauma, neglect, exploitation despite intense inner chaos and incomprehension. 

Born into a 1960s dysfunctional underclass family rife with criminality, substance abuse and domestic violence, Donna starts out as a two year old diagnosed as psychotic at age 2, and grows up treated as mad, backward and disturbed and the child who 'will never be able to tell'.  But gaining functional speech by late childhood, Donna leaves home by 8 years old and is homeless by her teens in an exploitative world that can no more understand her than she can her users and abusers.  Nobody Nowhere is an epic story of survival against all odds.

(Source: author's website)

Diagnosed in the 1960s as psychotic at the age of two when autism was known as Childhood Psychosis, Donna has lived 26 years believing she was born mad.  Now, Donna meets psychologist and autism expert Dr Marek who reconfirms her diagnosis with the more modern day term of autism and offers to work with her.  But when he suggests he can give her training in social skills and handshakes, she is not interested in learning to further bury herself in 'acting normal'.  Instead she determines to get from him the non-autistic translations for the array of experiences and concepts she has only ever made sense of in her own special language, kept secret within her own world.  

Dr Marek is soon not the only teacher.  Navigating the combinations of xenophobia, charity, curiosity and kindness, Donna graduates as a teacher and travels overseas to work with autistic children and other adults like herself.  In the process, she finds a way of belonging and 'simply being' among others without selling out who she really is and lays foundations for changing forever the way autism is understood by the wider world.

(Source: author's website)

After discovering that triggering technique of 'checking' can help them access their felt emotions buried deep under programed responses, Donna becomes unwittingly dared into marriage with Ian; a schizoid, fragmented man also on the autism spectrum.  But where Donna has spent years tearing down the invisible walls of her Exposure Anxiety in order to join the wider world, Ian has plans for them to move to an isolated farm in the middle of the Welsh countryside, away from humans, to live with sheep, pigs and a 'horse that simply is'.

Within this story is the moving account of their friendship with Alex, a teenager with autism, just beginning to find his voice for the first time through typed communication and determined not to be 'left behind'.  After Alex gets tinted lenses that help him encounter a remarkable cohesive 3D world he's never known, Donna and Ian follow, seeing for the first time a world that their own visual perceptual fragmentation has never shown them.

(Source: author's website)